The Gray Space

Black:
Death, Pain,
Sorrow, Misery, Vice.

White:
Birth, Pleasure,
Joy, Comfort, Virtue.

Gray:
Life.

Endless Mercy

No matter how far we are from Him, and how long we’ve been away, know that Allah giving us life to witness this Ramadan is a sign that He has left the door open for us to turn back to Him.  Your sins are great, and mistakes and weaknesses are many, you may say – but His mercy, compassion and loving grace to His servants are far greater and far more vast.

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I'm so humbled by Your Mercy, oh Allah! So awed by Your Majesty, so overwhelmed by Your blessings.
All praises be to You.

Ya Allah, bless us all with the ability to regain our faith and strengthen it this Ramadan, and keep our hearts pious throughout our lives.

Aameen.

Apologies to Ramadan

Apologies to you, O Ramadan! You used to come to people who prepared to meet you, understood your secrets and appreciated your reality; they would thus await your arrival and prepare for you by praying, fasting, and performing other acts of worship; they would supplicate to Allah for six months prior to your arrival that He would allow them to live long enough to enjoy your virtuous period; they would then supplicate during the remainder of the year for Allah to accept the deeds that they performed during your stay. They would say: ‘O Allah! Make us live long enough to reach Ramadan, and accept (the deeds we perform in it) from us.’

These people appreciated that you came to teach them how to elevate themselves above the animalistic conduct of having their main objectives being eating, drinking and satisfying their sexual desire. They realised that you came to teach them how to divest themselves of their desires.

Once, ‘Abdur-Rahmaan Ibn ‘Awf  was fasting, and when the time came for him to break his fast, two types of food were brought to him; when he saw this, he began to weep. His wife asked him why he was crying, to which he replied: “I remembered the day Mus’ab Ibn ‘Umayr died, and nothing could be found to shroud him except a small garment, (it was so small) that when we covered his head, his feet would be exposed, and when we covered his feet, his head would be uncovered; but today, I am enjoying these types of food, and I fear that we are exhausting all our share of pleasures by enjoying them now.”

O Ramadan! But nowadays, who do you meet when you arrive? People whose opinion of you is that you are a month of hunger and thirst during the day, and stuffed stomachs during the night; people who think of you as a month of cooking varied dishes in outrageous quantities; people whose preparation for meeting you was nothing except to supply themselves with food and drink, it is as if you only came to teach them the art of cooking and preparing meals in varied forms.

Apologies to you, O Ramadan! You used to come to people who would stay up at night in worship during you; they realised that you are a season of virtue and they therefore sacrificed everything during your stay. They heard the saying of Allah (which means): "A limited number of days…" [Quran 2: 184] Thus, they certainly did not wish to miss out during these few days.

You would look at them and they would be crying, standing in the optional night prayers, heedless of this life, their main worry being the Hereafter; they shunned this life and would prostrate and supplicate, placing their hope only in Allah. Safwaan Ibn Saleem  would pray the optional night prayer until his veins became protruded and their green colour would become apparent. ‘Umar Ibn Al-Khattaab  would cry to the extent that there became two permanent lines engraved on his face. ‘Abdullaah Ibn Al-Fudhayl  heard a verse that made him faint and fall; it was the saying of Allah  (which means): "If you could but see when they are made to stand before the Fire and will say: 'Oh, would that we could be returned [to life on earth] and not deny the signs of our Lord and be among the believers.'" [Quran 6: 27]

O Ramadan! But nowadays, who do you meet when you arrive? Miserable people whose only worry during the night is entertainment and frivolity; foolish people who have abandoned prayers and busied themselves with satellite television channels; lazy people, some of whom only strive to pray eight Rak’ahs of Taraweeh with the Imaam and then leave the mosque, bragging about it as if they have therefore fulfilled their due worship and all other responsibilities towards Allah; hardhearted people who hear the Qur’aan being recited day and night and yet whose hearts do not move, and whose eyes never shed a tear.

O Ramadan! Forgive us! Our hearts have become hard and our eyes are dry; we no longer feel the sweetness of obedience to you, nor do we sense the beauty of worship.

Apologies to you, O Ramadan! You used to come to people who were brothers without any blood relationship, but they realised the value of brotherhood, understood its significance, and thus fulfilled its rights; they perfectly comprehended the saying of the Prophet when he said: “A Muslim is the brother of his fellow Muslim.” They would be like a single body, the elders would be merciful towards the young and the young would honour the elders; they lived compassionate lives and dealt with each other based on love; they lived in harmony and had no hatred, envy or spite. They would suffer at the suffering of their brothers and strive to fulfil the needs of their brethren.

O Ramadan! But nowadays, you only meet people who have replaced brotherhood with enmity, and love with hatred; it is as if they have never heard the saying of the Prophet : “Deeds are raised to Allah every Monday and Thursday, and He forgives all people except for any two who have a dispute among them; it will be said: `Delay these two until they reconcile.`”

You only come nowadays to find people whose sense of brotherhood, as well as the bond set forth between them by Allah, has diminished; they do not react to the disasters of their fellow Muslims around the globe. They are not moved when their sisters are raped, or their rights are transgressed; it is as if they have never heard the saying of the Prophet : “He who is not concerned about the worries of other Muslims is not one of them.” You only come nowadays to find people who hardly even know anything about their next door neighbour.

Apologies to you, O Ramadan! These are our wounds and this is the reality in which we live!

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Hope

Seven years!

How time flies, Wafa! I can't believe that it's already seven years since you have left this world. We were in the eighth grade then, now I'm in the final year of my bachelor's degree. I wonder what you would be doing now, what course, what career you would opt for, which college you would have joined, what dress you would wear, which songs you would like, what things we would talk of and how often, if only you were here... Now our friends are getting married one by one. Some even have kids. I wonder when you would have got married, to whom, and what you would have worn and how beautiful you would have looked, if only you could come back! Sometimes I think it's good that you didn't have to see what this world has come to. And sometimes I feel that you could have stayed for some more time. It's just a week or two away from Ramdan; so Allah will be deciding whose time expires this year. I wonder if my name is on the list... I hope that when my time comes I go in as much piety as you did, with as much faith as those favoured by Allah Subhanahu va tha'ala have. I wish we can meet again in heaven with Allah's blessings. I still pray for you and I always will, in sha Allah. Love you.